SIDE EFFECTS FOR THIS DAY: left groin pain (pain rating 5); lower back pain (4); side pain (5); exhaustion; lack of focus; increased hot flashes/night sweats; problems with sleep.
I had a rehearsal today and was so tired. All I wanted to do before and after was to sleep. The piece I am doing is physically taxing, but isn't especially long. It probably would not feel quite so taxing if I weren't so tired otherwise, though it does deal with the extremes in range.
I've noticed an increase in hot flashes, sometimes several an hour. When I am sleeping something else is waking me and then about 30-60 second the hot flash sets in. I know some women feel that the actually sweating wakes them. For me, it is whatever is happening prior... a bad dream, some other chemical trigger, that is doing the waking.
I started back on the Lo Estrin on Friday, so we will see how it all goes. Hoping for the best.
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Sunday, May 18, 2008
Monday, May 5, 2008
May 4: More
SIDE EFFECTS FOR THIS DAY: headaches (pain rating 2); left groin pain (pain rating 6); ovarian pain (6); lower back pain (6); leg pain (5); lower ab muscles weak; hot flashes/night sweats; problems with sleep; hoarseness.
Today the groin pain and the ovarian pain was as bad as it has ever been. It did seem to respond to a high dose of Ibuprofen, but I felt shaky. I don't understand why the Lupron is not at least taking care of that.
On the bright side, once I got the pain under control, I was able to take a walk for about half a mile and listen to a concert. The concert was harder than the walk. I'm going to try really hard to walk a little everyday and try to build some strength. My appetite is horrible though. I don't have any fresh unprocessed food and anything heavy makes me feel ill.
I am so tired right now.
Today the groin pain and the ovarian pain was as bad as it has ever been. It did seem to respond to a high dose of Ibuprofen, but I felt shaky. I don't understand why the Lupron is not at least taking care of that.
On the bright side, once I got the pain under control, I was able to take a walk for about half a mile and listen to a concert. The concert was harder than the walk. I'm going to try really hard to walk a little everyday and try to build some strength. My appetite is horrible though. I don't have any fresh unprocessed food and anything heavy makes me feel ill.
I am so tired right now.
Saturday, May 3, 2008
May 3: Test
SIDE EFFECTS FOR THIS DAY: headaches (pain rating 1); left groin pain (pain rating 4); pain on sides (2); lower back pain (6); leg pain (5); lower ab muscles weak; hot flashes/night sweats; problems with sleep; hoarseness.
Today was a big test: could I walk 1/2 miles to a bus stop; could I drive myself to an airport 2 1/2 hours away; could I drag all my luggage by myself.
Yes.
I am so lucky today ended up being okay, despite feeling really horrible last night and not sleeping well. Normally, this travel schedule would have been no big deal. I've done this a million times and many more rigorous schedules. However, pre-Lupron days are not my present Lupron reality. It took a lot of concentration to drive so far. It took a lot of strength to hoist relatively light bags onto buses, shuttles and luggage compartments above my head (I'm 5'4").
All that being said, today I was functional.
I didn't have the headaches. I did have a lot of groin, leg and back pain, which made it challenging to walk... or at least not walk like a complete gimp. I swear it look like I have a peg leg (not there's anything wrong with it).
And how old am I???
35 going on 99.
Today was a big test: could I walk 1/2 miles to a bus stop; could I drive myself to an airport 2 1/2 hours away; could I drag all my luggage by myself.
Yes.
I am so lucky today ended up being okay, despite feeling really horrible last night and not sleeping well. Normally, this travel schedule would have been no big deal. I've done this a million times and many more rigorous schedules. However, pre-Lupron days are not my present Lupron reality. It took a lot of concentration to drive so far. It took a lot of strength to hoist relatively light bags onto buses, shuttles and luggage compartments above my head (I'm 5'4").
All that being said, today I was functional.
I didn't have the headaches. I did have a lot of groin, leg and back pain, which made it challenging to walk... or at least not walk like a complete gimp. I swear it look like I have a peg leg (not there's anything wrong with it).
And how old am I???
35 going on 99.
Friday, May 2, 2008
May 2: Eyes bigger than my stomach
SIDE EFFECTS FOR THIS DAY: headaches (pain rating 2 ramping now to 6); left groin pain (pain rating 4); pain on sides (6); lower back pain (6); lower ab muscles weak; hot flashes/night sweats; weakness and extremely tired; reduced mobility; problems with sleep; hoarseness; lack of focus.
So I bit off more than I could chew tonight. I often cantor Shabbat services (Reform and Conservative). I never think of it as a performance because that's not what it is. I'm giving voice to a congregation as we collect our prayers, our Psalms in song and then send them upward. Music is what takes our words to the next level... the emotional, the spiritual.
I've missed being able to cantor as much this season, especially at the shul around the corner from me. The group is a bit irreverent, a lot of fun and we regard each other with open arms and family.
But I wanted to do Yom HaShoah (Holocaust Day of Remembrance) and it happened to fall on Shabbat, which makes it very special. The music is not hard and I even asked for a mike, which normally I would never do. But I stood for such a long time. The longer I stood, the weaker I felt. My head started to pound. I began to be hoarse. Hot flashes, etc. This week, we didn't have accompaniment for the normal Shabbat tunes, only for the special music for Yom HaShoah. I was feeling very naked and so ill.
But the congregation got me through it with their genuine love and support. They were so happy to see me. Though I am lying here in bed now feeling like I was runover by a truck, I know in my heart that no one scrutinizes me there. We are there because the union of music and spirituality brings us together. In fact, it reminds us that there are so many things larger than ourselves.
So I bit off more than I could chew tonight. I often cantor Shabbat services (Reform and Conservative). I never think of it as a performance because that's not what it is. I'm giving voice to a congregation as we collect our prayers, our Psalms in song and then send them upward. Music is what takes our words to the next level... the emotional, the spiritual.
I've missed being able to cantor as much this season, especially at the shul around the corner from me. The group is a bit irreverent, a lot of fun and we regard each other with open arms and family.
But I wanted to do Yom HaShoah (Holocaust Day of Remembrance) and it happened to fall on Shabbat, which makes it very special. The music is not hard and I even asked for a mike, which normally I would never do. But I stood for such a long time. The longer I stood, the weaker I felt. My head started to pound. I began to be hoarse. Hot flashes, etc. This week, we didn't have accompaniment for the normal Shabbat tunes, only for the special music for Yom HaShoah. I was feeling very naked and so ill.
But the congregation got me through it with their genuine love and support. They were so happy to see me. Though I am lying here in bed now feeling like I was runover by a truck, I know in my heart that no one scrutinizes me there. We are there because the union of music and spirituality brings us together. In fact, it reminds us that there are so many things larger than ourselves.
Saturday, April 26, 2008
April 25: Tired
SIDE EFFECTS FOR THIS DAY: headaches (pain rating 1); left groin pain (pain rating 5); pain on sides (4); lower back pain (6); lower ab muscles weak; hot flashes/night sweats; weakness and tiredness; reduced mobility; white noise in ears.
Just tired, down and sad today. That's all I have the energy to say right now.
Just tired, down and sad today. That's all I have the energy to say right now.
Tuesday, April 22, 2008
April 22: Living
SIDE EFFECTS FOR THIS DAY: headaches (pain rating 7); left groin pain (pain rating 3); pain on sides (7); lower back pain (7); lower ab muscles weak; hot flashes/night sweats; needle-like feeling in legs; weak; white noise in ears.
Today started out as no headache and then by 5pm it took over. Earlier in the day, I was having problems with mobility from the aches in my body. And when I taught piano, I was hoarse and without energy. Then the migraines started. So I took some Fioricet and though I am on that barbiturate buzz, I'm still sitting up sans headache.
Today has been odd. I've been trying to work and practice, but was derailed by uncovering some disturbing news. I won't go into it here, but this is life. And how does one still deal with the normal bumps in the road when the status quo is a pot hole. When I have the answer, I will let you know.
I have a HUGE performance this weekend. I'm praying for clarity and health. It's out of my hands and I recognize that too. As we say in German, was kann man tun?
Today started out as no headache and then by 5pm it took over. Earlier in the day, I was having problems with mobility from the aches in my body. And when I taught piano, I was hoarse and without energy. Then the migraines started. So I took some Fioricet and though I am on that barbiturate buzz, I'm still sitting up sans headache.
Today has been odd. I've been trying to work and practice, but was derailed by uncovering some disturbing news. I won't go into it here, but this is life. And how does one still deal with the normal bumps in the road when the status quo is a pot hole. When I have the answer, I will let you know.
I have a HUGE performance this weekend. I'm praying for clarity and health. It's out of my hands and I recognize that too. As we say in German, was kann man tun?
Monday, April 21, 2008
March 21: Okey-dokey
SIDE EFFECTS FOR THIS DAY: headaches (pain rating 1); left groin pain (pain rating 1); pain on sides (7); lower back pain (7); lower ab muscles weak; hot flashes/night sweats; needle-like feeling in legs; better energy during the day but exhausted by night.
Today was not too bad in terms of energy level. The headaches were at a minimum, but the pain in my lower back and sides was much worse. Oddly, because my energy was so much better, it wasn't as troubling to me. I still managed to get a lot done though I am tiring sooner. I would have to say this is a step in the right direction. I'm hoping it holds through the weekend.
I am noticing the hot flashes during the day are much more frequent, several times an hour. It still doesn't bother me perhaps because I've always had a low temperature. This is the first time I can remember not being constantly cold.
I am drifting though so I should head to bed. Funny that I used to stay up until 3a or 4a. That's not yet returned.
Today was not too bad in terms of energy level. The headaches were at a minimum, but the pain in my lower back and sides was much worse. Oddly, because my energy was so much better, it wasn't as troubling to me. I still managed to get a lot done though I am tiring sooner. I would have to say this is a step in the right direction. I'm hoping it holds through the weekend.
I am noticing the hot flashes during the day are much more frequent, several times an hour. It still doesn't bother me perhaps because I've always had a low temperature. This is the first time I can remember not being constantly cold.
I am drifting though so I should head to bed. Funny that I used to stay up until 3a or 4a. That's not yet returned.
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